Hello friends,
It has been a long time since I have focused on posting on my blog. I now intend to share my thoughts and experiences again. I hope that they bring some peace, love and light into your consciousness.
Last night, I attended a spiritual healing workshop about releasing negative emotions. We did a guided meditation to release “black balloons” which contained negative emotions. It was very interesting to witness the different shapes and sizes of my balloons and what emotions they contained.
One was grief over the passing of my Mom. It was a medium-size bag and started to come closer and closer to me. I was getting ready to release it. But, my subconscious said No, I am not ready to let it go. It felt like I would be letting go of my Mom again. I heard my Higher Self said it is OK, you know your Mom is always with you. You are safe; you are loved. You and Mom are forever in each other’s hearts and it is OK to let the grief go. So, then “poof” it disappeared.
There were several other bags that appeared and then one by one left my sight. Except for one…the one called Anxiety. It started to grow bigger and taller and refused to leave. I felt ready to say goodbye to Anxiety and told it so. It started to yell: “No, you cannot live without me.” I said: “YES I can – GO!” And I saw the big tall balloon resisting, kicking and screaming as it was being exited “off stage.”
What an emotional victory for me to say GO to anxiety. It was healing and I felt a peaceful release. Anxiety has been a part of my psyche for as long as I can remember. Sometimes, it was full blown anxiety with my mind racing and my legs pacing. But, mostly, it was a low level anxiety, lingering underneath my activities – waiting to jump up and take advantage of any weak spot it saw in my mental, emotional or physical state.
Many people would comment that I was so peaceful and content and my countenance helped them to feel peaceful and at ease. And, I often was. However, many times, I felt like a swan “easily” gliding along the top of the water with her legs kicking furiously to keep afloat.
The good news is my ongoing spiritual practices (including meditation and yoga) have helped reduce my self-inflicted stress and anxiety. I am glad and grateful to experience a more mindful and peaceful life today and look forward to a continued evolution as I progress along my path of peace.
Namaste my friends.